Friday, December 30, 2016

One Word 2017


He seems to be uppermost in my thoughts this morning and I am thankful for that.  I read something a few days back and knew immediately what my ONE word for the coming year would be.  It's different than the normal words you would have and yet I know...without a doubt...this word is right for me this next year.  My ONE word encompasses so much and is for everyone and personal and only for me at times.  My ONE word is JESUS.  He is the Author and the Finisher of my faith. 
This comes from

Hebrews 12:2 AMP

Looking away [from all that will distract] to Jesus, Who is the Leader and the Source of our faith [giving the first incentive for our belief] and is also its Finisher [bringing it to maturity and perfection]. He, for the joy [of obtaining the prize] that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising and ignoring the shame, and is now seated at the right hand of the throne of God.

I also like verse 12 AMP
So then, brace up and reinvigorate and set right your slackened and weakened and drooping hands and strengthen your feeble and palsied and tottering knees,

Then verses 26 and 27 talk about how God shook the earth with His voice but He will shake all of creation and only what's found to be unshakeable will remain. We must follow Christ if we are to be part of His unshakeable matter what happens here on earth.  We must build our life on and in JESUS and follow Him only.

Normally I have a verse to go with my word but it seems...and I had no idea of this until I was just now writing...that I have a whole chapter for 2017...and this is a good thing!  

I also know that my ONE word is not just for me. is for others as well.  JESUS...all I know right now is that He is all encompassing...for everyone in every circumstance of their life...and sharing is inevitable.  JESUS...He is mine...and yours and yours and yours...everyone who will bend a knee and accept HIM...

The verse of the day from Bible Gateway fits in so nicely;

John 16:33 AMP
I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence.  In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted!  For I have overcome the world.  [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]

To all who need strength today...look to one else will do.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Early Morning Thoughts

This morning I got up to read and just couldn't focus.  Focusing has been hard for me of late...but I kept reading and trying.  Before I knew it I was picking up my journal and writing down the words as they dropped into my thoughts.  I wasn't really sure where the Lord was taking me with it all...or if I would share it...yet here it is.  Uncut and raw...thoughts in the early morning...

It's important everyday to take time to feel and be thankful.  Feel the pain and hurt...then feel the comfort and love.  The pain and hurt of this world...this suffering we must sometimes endure called life.  Yet the comfort and the love of the One who gave us life.  The One who suffered more than we could ever bear so that we could bear the pain that comes when we expect it least...yet know it is inevitable.  Life is filled with much joy but amidst the joy we know that suffering does loom.  For some it is off in the far distance.  For the here and now.  How we each react to that pain within us is up to each of us.  If we have the Lord with He longs to be for us all...we can know and be confident that He is faithful to walk with us and hold us close when we need Him most.  He doesn't seem to stop the pain and suffering from hitting us all...any of us...yet He cushions it...makes it somehow bearable. Because with Him there is a knowing that all the end...will be okay...will be bearable...because there is comfort...His comfort for us all.  All that know Him and stay close to Him.  If you know Him...Jesus...He will bring you through it all and you will be comforted and you will know.  Through Him...with Him...all things will be made new.  All things!  Your body...will be whole and will be healed.  Your mind...will be pain free and without confusion and fear.  All things!  And you are loved.  And they are loved.  Through it all we are held by a loving Savior.  The One that will make all things...all again.  Behold...a Savior is born and He is Christ our Lord!  Wanting nothing more than to hold and comfort you.  Give you the peace that passes all understanding!  Behold and be held by Jesus...our!

And at the bottom of my journal page is this verse;

Psalm 145:13

The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made.

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Oh How He Loves Us

This morning picking up my bible I opened to a scripture that I read earlier this week.

Jeremiah 31:25
For I have satiated the weary soul and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.

Oh how He loves us so! He takes these truths and places them deep within us so that we know...we feel it deep...that He is with us always! We need to know this not just in our minds but our hearts as well...clear down to the very depths of us...our souls! There seems to be such an urgency in my spirit this morning that you know and understand Just how much our Savior loves us! He died for us! As far as the east is from the west is how far His reach for us is. We will never find the end of His love. HE loves us so!! Through all of the things in our life...all of the things going on around us...the Lord is our comfort and our peace. He is our rest in our troubles...He is with us in our sorrows and in our joy! He loves us...He loves us...He loves us! His love...His all encompassing. Like a blanket thrown over you it covers you from head to toe. The only difference is that it's not only all around you...oh is inside of you as well! Forever and always He will give to you His grace and mercy because He has such an amazing love for you. Out of His great love He lifts us up and gives us much needed rest.

Psalm 107:9
For He satisfies the longing soul and fills the hungry soul with good.

John 4:14
But whoever takes a drink of the water that I will give him shall never, no never, be thirsty any more. But the water that I will give him shall become a spring of water welling up (flowing, bubbling) [continually] within him unto (into) eternal life.

Trust Him today with your sorrows...your failures...your heart. Let Him hold you and give you rest and peace.

Saturday, October 29, 2016

He Just Was

John 1:1
In the beginning the Word already existed.
The Word was with God,
and the Word was God.

John 1 is such a powerful chapter!  The excitement I feel as I am reading it this morning I can't even explain!  Just powerful to my soul!  Before I was a Christian it was important to me that I know where God and Jesus came from.  How they "were" so to speak.  No one could ever give me an answer.  They always said, "They just always existed.  They just were and are."  That was never good enough for me.  I needed to know.  Well, I am now a Christian and all I know is, "They just already existed.  God just is and always was."  Then the Word...Jesus...well verse two explains that...

John 1:2
He existed in the beginning with God.

He just is.  And you know what?  Today that is good enough for me.  Why?  Because somehow that is enough.  My finite mind doesn't know where they came from, or really understand it. my heart somehow...I just get it and it is exciting!!

The whole first chapter of John is so exciting to me.  So many nuggets of truth...

John 1:14
So the Word became human and made His home among us.  He was full of unfailing love and faithfulness.  And we have seen His glory, the glory of the Fathers one and only Son.

Jesus.  He became human.  He came here and lived to sacrifice Himself for us so that we can live with Him forever.  Gods one and only Son came to earth and lived as a man so that He could die for each and everyone of us...that we might live! 

John 1:29b
..."Look!  The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!"

Ohhh...what a proclamation from John the Baptist.  John telling everyone who Jesus is and why He came.

As I said...powerful chapter!  There is so much more and it is so exciting.  If you let it happen...The Word...will just reach out and grab hold of you...and you will never be the same!

Monday, October 24, 2016

Ever Thankful

This been an amazing day.  Why?  I'm not really sure.  There was nothing special about this day really...and was special.   Why?...because even though I slept very little I woke up alive...feeling light and good...knowing that whatever the day held it was going to be ok.  Why?  Because Jesus was with me.  I know...that no matter what...He is faithful and will never abandon me.  He lets me know over and over again that regardless of what's going on around us...if we are trusting in Him then He is right there...surrounding...holding...protecting...loving.  And for me personally...when things get crazy in my world all I have to do is whisper...Jesus I need you now...or...Jesus help me...and He comes with this amazing peace.  Really it's as if He just drops it on me.  I don't even always notice the moment peace takes over but as I'm working I realize that everything is good and I'm calm.  It's an amazing thing! 

I. Am. Ever. Thankful. and I. Am. Blessed.

Psalm 107:1
Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good!
His faithful love endures forever.

Psalm 28:6-7
Praise the Lord!
For He has heard my cry for mercy.
The Lord is my strength and shield.
I trust Him with all my heart.
He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy.
I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.

It is a feeling that is hard to describe that the Lord has filled me with tonight!  Joy...surges of happiness and comfort...unending.  I believe that at times the Lord blesses us with these times so we can share it with others.  To let others know that no matter how bad things may seem...if we are walking with the Lord our God...He is with you and helping you always. 

Give Him thanks
Give Him praise
Give Him your all
and He will give you His best
Then you will know
You will know

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Our Safe Place

Today I have been drawn to Psalm 61 and 62.  They are about security and assurance.  Letting us know that we can place all of us...our broken His hands.  That we can trust Him with us...He hears our prayers...whether we speak them out or breathe them silently.  He is always there...always listening...always holding His arms out to us.  Life is hard...many times it breaks us...we have no one to turn to but Him...and He is enough.  Even when you're not sure He hears...or really cares...He is faithful and He has not abandoned us. 

He. Is. Our. Safe. Place.

I'm not sure if what I have shared next is a prayer or just a pleading from within...but it is what I I need.

Today my soul...needs to be filled up with You please...

In my life Lord lead me.  Lead me to the Rock...You Lord...that is higher than my pain.  When I am totally overwhelmed with all that life is...when my heart has been breached...fold me into the safety of Your wings.  Shelter me where the storms can't whip around and pummel.  Place me in Your fortress where Your light is ever shining and Your grace is all I know.  Lead me...fold me...shelter me...placed forever in Your arms of love.   

Psalm 62:1-2

I wait quietly before God,
For my victory comes from Him.

He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress where I will never be shaken.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Just As I Am

Just as I am today Lord
I come
With all my torn and tattered places Lord
I come
With all my bruises and breaks Lord
I come
Just as I am Lord
I come
With all my wounds Lord
Just as I am
I come

Just as I am today Lord
Worn out
And yes Lord
Sometimes even lost
Feeling alone
Just as I am
I come

Just as I am today Lord
I come
Longing to be as I should
I come
Trying to be bold
To just let go
To fall at Your feet
To lean against You
To feel Your arms around me
To bask in Your love
Just as I am
I come

Just as I am today Lord
I come
Leaving myself behind
I come
To you Lord
Only You Lord
I give my all
Just as I am today Lord
I come
With my hands held high
With my heart surrendered to only You
I come
Just as I am

Saturday, October 15, 2016

A Prelude

Yesterday when I opened my bible it was to Psalm 107.  What I saw written on the pages took me back a few months when the Lord allowed me to be broken beyond words and then begin a healing process in me that is still ongoing today.  My many of a journey filled with struggles and victories...pain and healing...and much grace from a Savior whom I am believing has more love for me...for us...than any of us can even imagine.  And if I'm completely honest with you here...there are minutes...days even...that it is oh so hard to really understand all of that.  That is where faith has to step in and I have to allow the Holy Spirit to take over and renew my thoughts.  Because you see, if I don't allow the Holy Spirit to take over then doubt takes over...and then the struggle.  Yet the Lord is faithful to help us...and I am ever thankful!

Lamentations 3:22-23
 The faithful love of the Lord never ends!
    His mercies never cease.
23 Great is his faithfulness;
    his mercies begin afresh each morning.

This post is just a place to begin...a prelude if you will with more to come.  

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Hidest Thou Me

Hidest thou me in the refuge of You
Hidest thou me in the storm see me thru
Hidest thou me where my soul can find rest
Hidest thou me in Your comfort I am blest

While sitting and reading tonight I am reminded that I am lost without Jesus.  Oh how I need Him more and more!  Lately I find myself asking Him to just be with help me in all I do.  Many times I wake up with the simple thought of...Jesus...I need You.  It's not a plea...a bargaining chip...or even a sign of weakness.  No...I just realize that to get through my moments in day...I just really need Jesus to be with me always.  I believe He gave me the words to that poem to remind me  that when no one else is here He still is.  And that through it all...I am always and forever hidden in Him.  He won't leave.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

His Solace

Noticing lately that putting my thoughts into words is a good thing...yet finding it's not so easy turning the feelings into sharable words.  But...none the less...something I need to do.  I am sharing this for those that struggle to find the light in their their mind and down deep into their souls.  It truly is possible to do this with the Lord...when you surrender to Him and leave it all at the cross...covered by His blood.

Scriptures read that led me to a good beginning of my day;

Psalm 73:25-28 NLT
Psalm 108:1-5 NLT
Psalm 57:7-11 NLT

Solace:  Comfort...alleviation of distress.  For me I think of it as alleviation of "soul distress".
The word the Lord gave me that reached into my thoughts and then my heart.  Why...because I needed only what He can give...

10-6-2016 6:17 a.m.
So far this morning it's been a rough day.  Up about 3:45 a.m.  Finally at about 6:15 my thoughts are starting to be positive.  As I begin to reach out and touch the Lord with my thoughts my soul begins to rise...and find a calm solace in Him...His Word.  Where I was feeling loneliness and separated...peace is now starting to infiltrate and fill me up.  As I begin to read the scriptures, my heart and soul begin to lighten and be lifted up with the reminder that through it all...He is here!  In the early morning hours we may wake with a heaviness and not understand why.  But, it is in times like these that we need to persevere...drop our heads and lower our thoughts about things on earth...then raise our heart and soul to the Lord and things of Him!  Know that as we awaken our hearts to Him...think on His faithfulness to us...we can put away the stresses of life and unravel ourselves in Him.  His unfailing love is reaching out to us...holding on to us as we reach out and hold on to Him.  His love for us is as high as the heavens.  As we reach up searching for His hand...He reaches down and takes hold with sureness.  Not only taking our hands but grabbing our souls as well...filling our hearts and minds with His amazing and bountiful grace, mercy and love for us. He will truly become the strength of our body, mind and soul.  Desire Him more than anything...then in your weakness He will make you strong.

After thoughts...

The Lord is amazing yet I have found once again that it does take a full surrender on my part before I can actually reach out and touch Him.  It's not Him holding back for He is always there...waiting...calling...longing for my surrender to Him.  I am sometimes just slow to grasp how easy it is to find my peace in Him.  As the song will find He's not to busy to hear your hearts cry. 

Learn to keep pushing through until you find the light of His love. 

Psalm 57:8-11

Wake up, my heart!
Wake up, O lyre and harp!
I will wake the dawn with my song.
I will thank You, Lord, among all the people.
I will sing your praises among the nations.
For your unfailing love is as high as the heavens.
Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

From My Journal

John 16:33
33 I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]

A few weeks ago I wrote some things in my journal.  At that point it was for me but now...maybe for you as well.  I'm not going to clean it up in anyway.  I'm just going to write it as I penned it down that day.  Here re-writes.

When you feel storms approaching press in closer...harder...with more fervency than normal.  Let Jesus hold and calm you.  Though the waves be high around you...if you are in the eye of the storm with Jesus you will be at peace because you are safe.

When we find ourselves in a storm...because life happens for all of your best to get in the eye of the storm with Jesus.  He will keep you safe there.  Though the eye of the storm is the hardest place to is the safest place to be.  When you look out from the center of anything you can see in all directions.  Your perspective from the middle is completely different from those that are looking from the outside in.

Jesus has told us that in this life we will have many troubles.  Thunder and lightening will definitely abound!!  But take heart...if you're in the middle of it all with Jesus His arms are around you giving you that peace that surpasses all understanding!  You don't need to be filled with an all consuming fear because you know the all consuming God has got you!  

There is perfect peace in the eye of the storm.

Shelter me Lord under Your wings
keep me in Your shadow at all times
Be my shelter in the storm
my refuge where I hide
Keep me safe and cover me
from the onslaught on the enemy
Cover me with Your love Your protection
Hide me Lord in You
as I pursue You wholeheartedly

Okay...there it is.  Uncut and in the original intended.

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Mark 12:30 Amp
30 And you shall love the Lord your God out of and with your whole heart and out of and with all your soul (your life) and out of and with all your mind (with your faculty of thought and your moral understanding) and out of and with all your strength.

The love of the Lord for us is immeasurable...He is infinite. Our love for Him can't even come close because we are finite...measurable...human...we have limits. Yet we can love the Lord to our fullest capacity...with everything we are...all that makes! With our heart we feel love and give love...from the depths of our being...our very soul! Once you know Him...experience His love for can't help but to know that love from Him and you will love Him back. You feel it clear to the depths of your being...your soul. It's like a burning down deep that you just can't don't want it to's all consuming!  In your just know...that the all consuming burning fire within the Lord!  His presence...His fire within amazingly awesome.  
Don't try to live without His love because that's not living.  Seek Him until you truly find the way that draws you close to Him...that you know deep inside of you...He is really there.  Seek Him until you feel His presence...His fire burning in you!  Give Him your whole heart...your soul...your mind.  Surrender all to Him and love Him with all that is within you.  He will come to You and make Himself known like you have never thought possible. 

Proverbs 8:17 Amp
"I love those who love me, and those who seek me early and diligently will find me."

"until we see JESUS...face to face"

Saturday, August 20, 2016

Each Moment

In Your presence Lord
is where I want to be
I want to live my life
connected Lord to Thee
Only by Your side
is where I want to stand
Help me Lord each moment
to hold onto Your hand

With every breath I take
I humbly now do pray
That You will come and guide me
along the narrow way
You're always right there waiting
even when I leave Your side
Help me Lord each moment
to let You be my guide

Lord let my life reflect
the love You've shown to me
When You were nailed and pierced
and died upon that tree
Help me to overflow
with Your love anew each day
Help me Lord each moment
to love all that come my way

In Your presence Lord
forever I will stand
You're the Rock of my salvation
my Comforter my Friend

I lay everything I have
at Your feet just now
Help me Lord each moment
to You I humbly bow

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Overwhelmed By Him

If you can get yourself to a place of trust miracles will happen in your life...they have for me.  Somehow you have to trust people have to trust God enough...and you have to believe in what you have been told...what you know is truth.  And then...then just breathe in.  Breathe in what the Lord has for you.  No...actually breathe Him in...then exhale.  Exhale your fears...exhale your insecurities...exhale all the pain you have kept bottled up inside for most of your life...exhale the grief and depression you have allowed to rule your life.  Give them to them at the foot of the cross...behind the cross...and know...know that you will not pick them up ever again.  Why?  Because you have now given them to the Lord...turned them over so that you can begin a new journey.  A journey of peace because you are are being are becoming more and more free with each passing moment.  Free to be who you were born to be...who you were created to be.  Let Him heal your heart...let Him soften your heart.  Allow the tears to flow...freely and often.  Then...stay close to the Lord and He will stay close to you.  Run into His arms of love...let Him embrace you...hold you until you know that He has always got you in His grip...firmly yet lovingly.  You are His.  He loves you.  He loves me with a never-ending...undeniable...all

Jeremiah 31:3
The Lord appeared to me (Israel) from ages past saying,
I have loved you with an everlasting love;
Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you and continued my 
faithfulness to you.

Ezekiel 36:26
And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you.
I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender responsive heart.

Psalm 73:28
But as for me, how good it is to be near God!
I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter,
And I will tell everyone about the wonderful things You do.

I have been truly overwhelmed by a truly overwhelming Savior!
Only He can satisfy...only He can heal...
Only JESUS...only JESUS

Monday, April 25, 2016

Crushed Souls/Broken Hearts

Lord tonight I come to You yet again bowed low.  So many need Your healing touch to reach clear to their souls.  It seems that the winds of the storm are huge for some and some are even right in the eye of that storm.  Lord tonight I just have to believe that You are in the eye of it with us and that you know that some have souls that feel crushed and have hearts that  have been broken.  Oh Father God I just have to believe...with all that I have left in me...that You are going to bring us out of this storm...this desert...this valley...and help us to stand again.  Help us to breathe in Your grace...Your mercy...Your calming that we can once again begin to live the life that You have planned for us.  You have done so much for me Lord and I won't believe that You would leave us in this place.  I know that You Lord can heal crushed souls and broken hearts...I give mine to You Lord and I pray that others I know will turn to You as well.  Thank You Lord for all You have given us...

In Jesus Jesus mighty name...Amen

Morning Prayer

O' Lord I come to you this morning bowed down low.  I need You today so much...more than yesterday...and I know You know.  Lord you are aware of all my sufferings right now and You know what will come tomorrow. me to find strength in You.  Help me just to know that no matter what I am feeling...all will be good.  I can do this...I can make it...with Your help. Please come with Your great power Lord...Your swift response...Your mighty love.  My soul is heart broken...I so need You today.  Please come in with Your great power Lord and rescue me today. In Jesus name...In Jesus name...

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Lesson From Elijah

As of late I have been defined by my struggles...but that's not what I want to be known by.  I want others to know me by how God has changed me.  Not for accolades for myself but so others will know what God can do for He works in lifes and does miracles in helpless...hopeless people...that's me.  How He changes hearts...heals you clear way down deep into your very soul...I want people to know and see that! 

Lately I have been praying a lot...I have much to talk to God about...much I need help with.  What is most amazing to me is this...

Even though I have not been stellar...great at...being what I need to be...God has not left me.  As for me...I never left either but I did back away a bit...I don't even know why.  You see I know that when things in life start to unravel the best thing I can do is to press in...not back off...but I increasingly backed away.  I recognize now that it was me...not God...that backed off.  (I am truly grateful that was pointed out to me.)  With that said...

This morning I simply said..."Lord, please show me something to read today that I need to hear."  And He did.  I have always liked this passage but today I learned something new in it.

1 Kings 19:9b-14

But the Lord said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"

Elijah replied, "I have zealously served the Lord God Almighty.  But the people of Israel have broken their covenant with You, torn down Your alters, and killed every one of Your prophets.  I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me, too."

"Go out and stand before Me on the mountain," the Lord told him.  And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain.  It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind.  After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake.  And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire.  And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper (a gentle blowing).  When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave.

And a voice said, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"

He replied again, "I have zealously served the Lord God Almighty.  But the people of Israel have broken their covenant with You, torn down Your alters, and killed every one of Your prophets.  I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me, too." study bible tells me that even though Elijah feels like he is the only one left...he is not.

What always stuck out to me before was that God doesn't necessarily speak to us in a loud booming voice.  No...many times...He speaks in just a whisper.  Sometimes in the stillness of your sleepless night...He speaks and you just know. 

What is pointed out to me now is this...After the storm God asks a question and Elijah answers with the same answer as before.  So we can see...nothing had changed for Elijah even though God did these mighty things to get His attention.  Elijah just stayed hidden in the cave...not really wanting to "see"...hear...what God was saying to him. 

For me...right now in my life...I get it.  God has allowed some big storms to hit me in the last few months...right up to very recently...and my world has been rocked!!...I am broken.  Like Elijah I have not "really" seen or heard.  I have not really "got it" up to this point.  I have just stayed hidden in my cave...going my own way...thinking that in the end it would all be okay.  But I was wrong.  Nothing is okay. 

So the scripture that comes to me now is...

Psalm 27:8
My heart has heard You say, "Come and talk with me."
And my heart responds, "Lord, I am coming."

The great thing is...When we do "Come and talk", He listens and cares.

The Lord is good.  As I looked that up I saw reference to another verse...something I so need today...

Isaiah 1:18
"Come now, let's settle this," says the Lord.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
I will make them as white as snow.
Though they are red like crimson,
I will make them white as wool.

Thank You Lord!

Lord I just ask that You hear my heart today.  I come before You...bowed low...and ask You to make me whole.  Forgive me of all my thoughtless actions and sinful ways.  I only want to live for You Lord.  Help me to seek You in every part of my life.  Thank You for giving me chance after chance after chance.  I fail miserably most days yet You are willing to forgive and take me back if I will but bow low in repentance and come to You.  Help me Lord to always do that...sooner rather than later.
Thank You.  In Jesus Jesus name...

Friday, April 22, 2016

Walls Of Salvation

This thought just hit me like a ton of bricks...

If we don't tear down the walls around our hearts and swing wide the gates of our souls...JESUS will never really be us.  He will be our Savior...if we have asked Him to forgive our sins...but we will still always be longing for something...never quite feeling like it is well with our soul.  

Last night as I was reading my Bible it seemed that every passage I turned to talked about gates...doors...walls.  I know that the Holy Spirit is speaking to me.  I know...because I know.  The gates of Heaven are only going to be opened to those that are those living according to what is written in the Word of God.  We all fail at times.  Different areas for all of us but still yet...a fail is a fail...a shortcoming is a shortcoming...a sin...well...sin is sin no matter what else you label it.  The last scriptures I read before going to bed last night were these...part of a song to the Lord.

Isaiah 26:1-4
In that day, everyone in the land of Judah will sing this song;

Our city is strong!
We are surrounded by the walls of God's salvation.
Open the gates to all who are righteous;
allow the faithful to enter.
You will keep in perfect peace
all who trust in You,
all whose thoughts are fixed on You!
Trust in the Lord always,
for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.

In life we have lots of trouble...much stress.  But if we live for the Lord and let Him be our anchor...supported by Him...dwelling in Him...listening only to Him...things of life will not shake us to the point of being uprooted out of our life for Him.  We will be surrounded by His love...held in His arms...sheltered by Him.  We will have peace in Him.  We must keep our thoughts on the Lord trusting only in Him.  I really like the last line of verse one...We are surrounded by the walls of God's salvation.  That is how I want to feel at all times.  As if there are literal walls surrounding me...walls that I know are put around me by God Himself !  I could even think that the feeling may be...being held by the arms of Jesus.  Soft and gentle...yet...strong and mighty!!  Where nothing but good can penetrate. 

Father God do a mighty work in me.  Help me to tear down the walls of my heart and swing wide the gates of my soul so that Your Holy Spirit can enter in and do the work only HE can do within me.  I want to live fully and completely in Your will.  Thank You for allowing me to see things in me that I need to let You change.  Only You Lord...only You can help me and change me.  Thank You for the work You have started in me and for the work You are going to finish. 

In Jesus name...In Jesus name...

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Nothing Held Back

This morning it was so hard for me to leave for work.  All I wanted to do was sit here and talk with the Lord and write the things down that I was feeling.  It is hard for me to explain but I felt such a great peace like I haven't felt in way too long.  It was an abiding peace...sustaining peace...a peace I so needed to feel.  I so need to be in His presence.  More and more...and more. 

When I got home I opened up my bible not knowing what to read...but read I is essential for everything in me.  My everything...I know it...failing is not what I want to do again...ever.
So...I turned to Psalms and just started looking.  Psalm old standby...I read...something more was needed.  Psalm 24 and 25...I will only put some verses here but it is all good.

Psalm 24:3-6

Who may climb the mountain of the Lord?
Who may stand in His holy place?
Only those whose hands and hearts are pure,
who do not worship idols and never tell lies.
They will receive the Lord's blessing,
and have a right relationship with their God and Savior. 
Such people may seek You
and worship in Your presence, O God of Jacob.

O, Lord once again I ask for forgiveness...for a clean and pure heart.  Help me Lord to trust You.  Help me Lord to come into a right relationship with You.  I seek You more and more and long to worship in Your presence Lord all the days of my life...and after my life is done.

Psalm 24 7-10

Open up ancient gates!
Open up, ancient doors,
and let the King of glory enter.
Who is the King of glory?
The Lord, strong and mighty;
the Lord, invincible in battle.
Open up, ancient gates?
Open up, ancient doors,
and let the King of glory enter.
Who is the King of glory?
The Lord of Heaven's Armies
He is the King of glory.

When I read this I was truly excited.  I can just picture the people...the children...running to the gates and swinging them wide to let the King of Glory in!  Can't you just see it now...The King of Glory...of all Heaven and earth...coming through the gates.  Everyone bowing at the Kings feet...worshiping...praising the King of all Glory!!  And then another thought came to mind...

The door of my heart...the gate to my soul...and me...finally swinging it open wide letting the King of Glory in with nothing held back from Him!  No fear of the unknown! 

Nothing. Held. Back.

With all of my worship and all of my praise going to the One who saved my soul...who saved my life!   Oh, open up worn out doors of my up, heavy ancient doors to my soul.  Let the King of Glory enter to do what He wills in my life. 

Psalm 25:1-2a

O Lord, I give my life to You.
I trust in You, my God!

Tonight I am so sorry and very thankfulThere is a bit of an excitement building within for things to come.  I don't know what those things will be but I am oh so ready for some change to take place. 

Heal me Lord and let me see
All the good inside of me
Touch me Lord and let me be
Consecrated Lord to thee
Heal me
Touch me
Move in me
Fill me Lord with more of Thee

I love the song...Holy Spirit Thou Art Welcome

Holy Spirit Thou art welcome in this place
Holy Spirit Thou art welcome in this place
Omnipotent Father of mercy and grace
Thou art welcome in this place

For me the place is within whole life.  I believe that full and complete healing will happen.  Holy Spirit I am ready...willing...waiting...

In Jesus name...In Jesus name...come


Broken come broken before You...I couldn't get anymore broken than I have become the last couple of weeks...I am literally sick from all of the breaking.  Forgive me Lord...please Lord forgive me.  Give me another chance to show you...and others...that I am worth saving...that I am worth having around.  Lord...I just want to place myself in Your sweet hands...The nail scarred hands of Savior.  Please make me whole...please make me new.  You Lord are the Potter...I Lord am the clay...mold me and make me in anyway You want me to be.  I so desperately need Your help today.  Your soothing and calming to my innermost mind.  Heal me spiritually...I don't even care about my physical body anymore...but my spiritual self...the part of me that brings me close to You Lord...the part of me that others see as it comes through...because of You Lord...only because of You.  Keep me in Your presence today as I go.  I need Thee O. I need Thee...every hour I need Thee...O bless me now my Savior...I come to Thee.  I bow before thee Lord today...keep me Lord...along my way...In JESUS name...In JESUS name...

New Morning Thoughts

Your mercies are new every morning...Your grace is sufficient for me...You are my Shepherd...The Lord of my life.  O, Lord...wash over me with Your love and mercy...Your truth and grace this morning.  Make me new...make me clean...make me whole.  I need You more and more...right  Please forgive me...make me clean.  Wash me clean in the rivers of Your love.  Let me dip in the streams of Your mercy.  Drown me in Your living water and cleanse me to feel Your love.  I will praise You...I will praise You...Praise the LAMB for sinners slain...O Lord.  Keep me safe in You today.  Thank You Lord for saving me.  Thank You Lord for keeping me.  Thank You Lord for saving my soul...Thank You Lord for making me whole...Thank you Lord for giving to me...Thy great salvation so rich and free.  In Jesus name...In Jesus name...amen...amen.