You know....satan is a liar. He steps into our life to bring fear....to cast shadows of darkness over us....to destroy us. Satan wants nothing good for us. He wants to bind us and imprison us to where we feel as if we are suffocating. Recently I have been in that state of mind. It all started a couple of weeks ago....
Since becoming a Christian I don't recall drinking any alcohol. It's not that I didn't want to because many many times....I wanted to! But for me....it would have been the wrong thing to do. I liked how it made me feel Way. Too. Much. So for a long time....I struggled with that issue. Finally one day I turned it over to the Lord and I've been good without it since. Then two, maybe two and a half weeks ago, it popped into my thoughts....You need to get something to drink. You know....just a subtle little suggestion. Immediately I thought....What?! Where did that come from? Then off and on for a couple of weeks that thought would just happen. I would push it away and sometimes even say....satan leave me alone. I don't need a drink! Well a few days back I went to a party. Not a "party" party but one where there was alcohol. I walked in and immediately noticed that 85 % of the people were all walking around with some of the biggest drinks I had ever seen....at least in my mind! Honestly, I had no idea I would be bothered so much by it. I just kept thinking how I really wanted a drink. Then I would think....why am I thinking that? Drinking is the last thing I want to do! The funny part was....many people there know I don't drink but they were teasing me and asking me if I wanted one. Then others that don't know were honestly asking me if they could get me a drink. By the time I left that was all I could think about....even though I knew I couldn't.
Something else that I used to always struggle with was nightmares. Well....they have been happening a lot recently as well. Last night I went to sleep for just a little while and then woke up with a start. I opened my eyes and was sure I saw something staring down at me. Immediately I started trying to hit it but it was so tall I had to really stretch to even come close to it. As soon as I got my wits about me I grabbed the light and turned it on....there was nothing there.
Finally I have realized that this has been an attack from satan. It was this last nightmare that helped me to know this. So I was looking in my bible for something to read before bed and all the scriptures I saw have something in common. Here's a couple of them....
The Lord is my strength and shield,
I trust Him with my whole heart.
The Lord gives His people strength.
The Lord blesses them with peace.
So be strong and courageous,
all you who put your hope in the Lord.
I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for He is right beside me.
In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for You alone, O Lord, will keep me safe.
I know that whatever I'm going through the Lord really is always with me. He loves me more than I can even imagine. He loves you more than you can imagine too. If you are struggling tonight because satan is trying to throw up road blocks to keep you away from Jesus....don't listen to him. Only listen to the voice of the Lord. There is a chapter in Psalms that always comes to my mind in these times. I like it in the amplified version when I'm really having a hard time.
"until we see JESUS....face to face"