Giving Up Control

These last few weeks God has been speaking to me but I haven't been doing a very good job listening.  Oh yes....I have heard Him but I just haven't been doing what I hear very well.  I have been obeying kind of halfheartedly.  Today has been a wake up call.  Everything I have heard, everything I have read and most importantly....everything God has spoken to me today....let me know that I need to do a 180 in my behavior when it comes to the things of God.  So tonight I pulled out an old devotional....The Word For You Today....for November and read about "A Spiritual Checkup".  There was a prayer that says this....

Father, forgive me for taking back control of my life.  I come before You surrendering, repenting and asking You to cleanse me.  Renew me and fill me with Your Spirit.  I renounce my selfish ways and make You Lord of my life.  You said that You would rather I was hot or cold, but not lukewarm.  Light a fire in me today that will burn so brightly, others will be drawn to You.  Amen

That is a great prayer and I have prayed it sincerely. The devotional goes on to say this....

Has your prayer life led you to a deeper intimacy with the Lord?  If you're serious about in-depth change, growth in your spiritual walk, and developing a Christlike character, spend time with the Lord today and say, "Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me and lead me in the way everlasting" (Ps 139:23-24)

So today, I am surrendering and repenting....once again....and committing to giving control back to the One who gave me real life. 

God asking me to be more transparent in my writing again is very hard for me.  But....I do know it is for my good as well as for others that struggle with some of the same things. 

"until we see JESUS....face to face"