There has been a war going on within me for days now. Today this one question kept coming to my mind....Am I really any different than I use to be? At times I would think no....at other times the answer would be yes. Satan has been working overtime with me to get me to doubt. To get me to give up. To get me to run the other way. Run from the Lord instead of towards Him when things just aren't going well.
Then tonight many things happened. It seems that whenever I try to sleep lately, for one reason or another, I can't. But tonight, I went to sleep. About 45 minutes later I awoke....I became scared....anxious....and sure I wasn't going to make it. I'm not trying to be dramatic but my heart was acting up again. Anyway....there was prayer and eventually I was some better. I went to my desk and started reading my Bible. Long story short....
I started praying. I had a long conversation with the Lord....lots of prayer....then knew I needed to write. Then I started reading the Bible again. I turned to....
Psalm 27:7-8 and 14
7. Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!
8. My heart has heard You say, "Come and
talk with me."
And my heart responds, "Lord, I am
coming."
14. Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
These verses fit so well because I have heard Him tell me....so many times lately....to talk to Him. To come to Him. To spend time with Him. The Lord longs for us to spend time with Him. He will help us through everything if we will just go to Him. I know this! All the sickness....all the problems....He might not take them away but He will help me to get through them. Jesus will help us all. Jesus loves us more than we can comprehend.
I don't know how this is all going to turn out but I do know that I can't make it without the Lord.
"until we see JESUS....face to face"
A beautiful prayer sweet friend! I hope you were able to to rest after this blessed time with the Lord and dream some sweet dreams. Praying that you have a peaceful and pain free day! See you soon! :)
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Chelle,
ReplyDeleteI've been through those same struggles. I know its tough, keep believing in what you know and leaning on Him. Hold strong to your faith and as you said He WILL help you through this time.
It sure can be tough living in these last days. As Satan is really whipping it up trying his best to knocks us down so we are either doubting God and walking away from Him or binding us from sharing the Good News to others. Here is a cool version on a well known verse... Ephesians 6:12 GNT
ReplyDelete"For we are not fighting against human beings but against the wicked spiritual forces in the heavenly world, the rulers, authorities, and cosmic powers of this dark age."
This warfare is tough and real and the oppression of Satan is not only very real but very debilitating. Sometimes when I am in the thick of a battle I feel so heavy. The weight of the attack is physically exhausting. Freedom is found, though, in reading Scripture and praying. I love your prayer and stand in agreement with you.
Blessings,
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Isn't it amazing that the scripture you came to describes a conversation between "your heart" and God?
ReplyDeleteEspecially since it was your (physical) heart that woke you up!
The fleshly heart is placed in subjection to the spiritual heart that is within you (Where the Holy Spirit resides).
This, I think says a lot about your spiritual growth Chelle.
Blessings and love to you, my friend ~ Lisa
Chelle - There are things I get anxious about - and I fall into obsessive thinking - and I do what you do - take it to Him. He's been telling me to wait - maybe another 15 year wait - and it's hard. I am like you - I don't know how it's going to turn out - all the threads in this story of mine - but all I have to do is take it one step at a time. I can do that - just one step. But I do know Chelle - one way it will end for sure - is one day, we'll be in heaven, sitting together someplace beautiful - telling each other the harrowing parts and celebration parts of our story - that is a given! Praying for you, friend:)
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